Matthew Robb

Okay so Jeremy and I waited up to snatch our vanity urls. I wanted Matthew and he wanted Jeremy. Those were taken so I was going to try Matt or Robb but it said it had to be 5 characters or more long. What’s dumb is there are people with shorter then 5 character vanity urls.

Anyways I got mine so check me out at: http://facebook.com/matthewrobb

So many things happening. I am so busy every day it’s just nuts. Work is really ramping up and we’re starting to make such great progress on knocking down the huge project backlog we have. We’re such a young company and growth seems to be pushing everyone involved to new places. It is very exciting.

Moving time is on the horizon. Paid the last rent check for this month and we officially have to be gone by 12:00PM June 30th. We have some decent prospects in the pipe and I am hopeful that things will work out on that front.

Change is rough. For me and for everyone. It’s hard when you see your friends all growing in different directions. I want to force it somehow so that it doesn’t happen but at the same time I don’t want to hold anyone back nor do I want to hold myself back. I just wish communication was better between my group of friends. We all know each other to well for people to get away with having a problem with something and not sharing it. Saying theres nothing wrong when it’s obvious is like a slap in the face. Some may take this harder then others.

I really hate my emotions still. They conflict with progress in huge ways. I really don’t often feel something and know for SURE what it is and what it means. This has happened few times but the one time I can remember it happening resulted in devastation. My own. I don’t normally regret things but if I could go back in time and try to do something different/better it would be that situation alone. Everything else I couldn’t care less about. It’s been quite a while now so I don’t rub salt in the wound quite as frequently as I once did but it still happens. A reminder causes my brain to have split focus all day. I lost like 2-3 hours of productivity I would say on this today.

I need to move on. My heart won’t let me do it.

I just need to try and stay focused. I am not sure how I can do that and the other things I’d like to at the same time but I will try my best.

I mean. I will try to rely on God as best I can to handle things. It’s not been this difficult to do in a very long time.

So it really sucks when people give you the run around and make it seem like you are for sure getting into a new apartment and then in the last second it doesn’t happen. So now I have nowhere to live. I am homeless. This really stinks.

Looking around for alternatives is yielding little to no results. I am just not sure what I am going to do. I want to DO something about it but it seems like theres nothing TO do. Frustrating indeed.

Along we go. The ride seems to be building momentum at a more steady pace. Life should be drastically different for the next year. Last year around this time I was moving out of my house, I started a brand new job, I got my license and a junky car.

This year I am moving into a new place, getting a new car, got a new job… I feel like I’m going on to the next grade not in highschool but in lifeschool. I’ts all pretty exciting.

I like when I see my life as it is and I also can see how it could be. When I can see direct aproaches to improving and advancing things.

Hopefully the changes I have listed are only the beginning. Much to be done if next year is to be greater than or equally monumental.

So I spent way more time they I wanted trying to find a good photo site with the right kind of API to work with an application I am building for a client. I started with Flickr. Having seriously terrible issues in implementing it I tried 50 other things eventually coming back to Flickr and it seeming much easier.

So they have some security measures in place that make the only form of Authentication available require the vistier to “accept” use on a Flickr page. Well that doesn’t work at all as I need it to be transparent to the end user that it even comes from Flickr.

Well I did eventually figure out a way to do it but it was NOT easy. I thank God for helping me achieve what was seeming to be very impossible for some time.

I have found it to be magnitudes easier to manage and organize my life if I do it on a micro scale. This was not previously possible as there were many things I needed to consider “best policy” for before I could just wait for them to happen and deal it based on that policy.

I have been feeling worn down trying to manage and strategize ahead of the game that lately I have been forced to just take it as it comes and just deal with things one after another. I am finding this a very effective method that is also applicable to managing my internet habbits as well.

It was very daunting to think about keeping active on many different sites and keeping my information or data up. However I have taken more of a one at a time approach that seems to be working out really well. I think the first step for me to get to this point was figuring out what the differences between the sites I was using were. What their individual use was to me. After doing that then I just had to gauge what I feel like doing each time and then do it.

I am having a lot more fun with it all this way too!

It’s very difficult for me to understand. I am not a fan of Smallville nor have I seen very many episodes of it. I want to talk about classic Superman. He found out he had the awesome power he did when he was decently young but he didn’t start saving the world until he was a mature adult. I find this idea fascinating.

I will say that while I do not believe in pre-determination in a conventional sense. Destiny, what have you. I do believe that you cannot change the future. I also believe that the past had to happen the way that it did in order for you to be who you are right now.

However I find myself very frustrated by the fact that I feel like I am holding myself back. Only allowing for incremental growth at a rate I cannot control. I do not know what this is but I do hope to remove this obstacle from my life.

I know I have the potential to be Superman. I can only hope that the events following this blog are part of the series that lead me to realizing it.

Set up my Tumblr to work with Twitter and it is actually really awesome. Going to make my life a little bit easier I think.

D O L L H O U S E

2009 so far has been amazing. I only see things getting better and better. Here we go again. I hope everyones year is starting off as good as mine is.