Avalanche Anxiety
So I have this ever building sense of anxious concern for myself, my family, and for those who depend on me. You see I have spent a great deal of my life relying on this inner sense of security that things magically work themselves out. I am aware that they indeed don’t do this but the fact is that every time I have placed my bet on it up to this point I have not been let down. So here I am with the biggest series of events and changes and opportunities and I am uneasy.
I feel like I have been running up the side of a mountain in a snowy wasteland. In the beginning I gave no stock to the risks or warnings. Now I am quite a ways up the mountain and my pace has slowed to a creep as I begin to doubt my extraordinariness. You can defy the odds for only so long. I fear soon the avalanche.
